hang loose

you can’t really explain the type of tears you cry when they’re over someone you love. they’re not happy tears, but they’re not sad tears either. you don’t really know why you’re crying, for that matter. i guess it’s just because you feel empty when you’re not physically with them. you feel shitty and lonely and incomplete in a way. but at the same time, when you’re crying your damn eyes out, you somehow manage to think about all the good things too. you think of their smile and the way their body moves and just every single physical detail about them pops into your thoughts. most of the time the good things end up outweighing the bad, you get a few butterflies in your tummy, then fall asleep. repeat every single night until their arms are around your body and you’re able to fall asleep together again. it’s all so bittersweet.